tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post6767553132306540267..comments2023-09-05T09:33:56.479+01:00Comments on Gledwood Vol 4 (new main blog) : Desperately Seeking An Alternative to Methadone...Gledwoodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-51337700589889440012012-10-20T19:59:38.824+01:002012-10-20T19:59:38.824+01:00Don't be to hard on yourself.. I am proof posi...Don't be to hard on yourself.. I am proof positive that this can be done. <br /><br />I was hardcore addict for 20 some odd years... starting out on coke & then mixing a little heroin in to take the edge of the coke comedown. I found I liked the heroin much better & switched. We had a friend who lived in Thailand & he used to bring in 10 or so ounces for us every couple of months so we had a fairly clean supply & a bit to sell on the side to keep us going. My habit ranged from about a gram to two-ish a day. <br /><br />In the early 2000s, our source dried up & my bf & I split up & I never saw the old friends anymore. I managed to find a local dealer whose dope wasn't too bad & kept on with him for a few years. I never really had tried to quit before but it was getting too much... and after more than 20 years of poking myself umpteen times a day, my veins were shit. I just got tired of it. <br /><br />I got on a methadone program but was still fixing a couple of times a week until my dealer told me I wasn't worth the effort anymore as I was only chipping... god I was so furious at the time but I haven't stuck a needle in my arm since. That was May 5 2007. <br /><br />The hardest thing (besides missing the dope routine) was how I felt. I had been in a drug daze for so long I didn't know how to deal with any emotions because my solution to almost everything had always been to stick a needle in my arm.<br /><br />I was on methadone for maybe 2 years & just slowly weaned myself off... got down to about 10ml a day & then slowly down to 5ml over the course of a few weeks - then I started alternating times I would drink it so that it was 36 hours between dose & then just started skipping days.<br /><br />I celebrated 5 years clean last May (I don't count the methadone). It DOES get easier. I rarely think about it now & the dope dreams stopped years ago.<br /><br />All my best & good luck to you :)tcnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-51288400547843900722012-10-13T12:44:55.373+01:002012-10-13T12:44:55.373+01:00BUGERLUGS: 70% of the prison population were not t...BUGERLUGS: 70% of the prison population were not there committing crimes to buy methadone ~ I love that!<br /><br />Getting off gear PROPERLY and FOR GOOD I don't know<br /><br />I have threatened myself with death, threatened myself with everything and nothing works<br /><br />BEVERLY: mental health is such a minefield. I have tried amateur diagnostics on people I know, especially one person who has at least a double, if not treble psychiatric diagnosis (from the drs) this person is such a mess sometimes it is unreal. In the end I think mad people are just mad and the labels bipolar, depression and schizophrenia were only ever meant to describe patterns of illness, not the place you go to when you have completely lost your mind...GLEDWOODhttp://gledwood4.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-38557941808405187632012-10-13T12:06:05.156+01:002012-10-13T12:06:05.156+01:00TRUTLETENUARI giants nike jersey
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Me again.
That is a beautiful video on the pa...Hi. <br />Me again.<br />That is a beautiful video on the pale blue dot.<br />It really makes you think.And may be our struggles are so tiny lost in space.I wish I could float a round all over it.Would be lonely and cold.<br />My sisters personality was always agressive & controling and hostile way before she got the drug induced disorder.She was always in trouble even as a kid.<br />Her personality is not related to the disease I think.<br />I was diagnosed with major depression but I dont want dwell there.XoXo<br /> Bevhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04389002655247740653noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-4589617680348375122012-10-12T19:53:03.865+01:002012-10-12T19:53:03.865+01:00Very nice write-up. I certainly appreciate this we...Very nice write-up. I certainly appreciate this website.<br />Continue the good work!<br /><i>Check out my homepage</i> <b><a href="http://www.lumino.com.au/blog/a-brand-experience/" rel="nofollow">mysite</a></b>Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-58241236910777139842012-10-12T16:57:11.494+01:002012-10-12T16:57:11.494+01:00(never intended... i mean when dr vincent dole &qu...(never intended... i mean when dr vincent dole "discovered" methadone in nyc back in 1960something)...<br /><br />Polish cigarettes? Yes something called Mars Lights back in 1992 or so, they were considerably heavier than Camels, Marlboros or Benson and Hedges...<br /><br />The modern ones might be milder...<br /><br />Mental and physical? Yes. How will I ever get clean????<br /><br />And stay clean???? I have no idea!!!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-49719003169906462782012-10-12T16:51:14.325+01:002012-10-12T16:51:14.325+01:00Oh I see. Its very hard geting off.That is both bo...Oh I see. Its very hard geting off.That is both body and mind dependence right? Bevhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04389002655247740653noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-31052042765271970662012-10-12T16:48:10.352+01:002012-10-12T16:48:10.352+01:00Have you tried the Polish cigarettes?I wonder if t...Have you tried the Polish cigarettes?I wonder if the Polish stores in my area sell them. I will tell my ex hubby to check that out.May be there milder.He has a bad cough these days.<br />XoXoBevhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04389002655247740653noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-52271993015085774822012-10-12T16:47:27.471+01:002012-10-12T16:47:27.471+01:00How have I bin? I'm survivin' darlin'
...How have I bin? I'm survivin' darlin'<br /><br />"Didn't get mush from them.." sounds like what happens to me now on 'eroin.<br /><br />I don't know whether I want or need anything different. Maybe that's just a different alley to get stuck up...<br /><br />MAIN reason I want something else is that the something else-s ~ like dihydrocodeine and morphine are FAR EASIER TO GET OFF!! than nasty old methadone, which was never intended as a detox drug, only a maintenance drug...GLEDWOODhttp://gledwood4.blogspot.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-55537326151715701052012-10-12T16:41:21.813+01:002012-10-12T16:41:21.813+01:00If enouh people complain about it. Will they offer...If enouh people complain about it. Will they offer some thing better?<br />I dont know.<br />The only drugs I ever used was Coke which made me to talkative and pot and the stuff you inhale from a bong and some peoples pills when I was curious about it.Im not curious any more.<br />I didnt get mush from them.<br />How have you been?<br />Heres a nice little kiss for you XoXo<br />Bevhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04389002655247740653noreply@blogger.com