tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post8022657333791265801..comments2023-09-05T09:33:56.479+01:00Comments on Gledwood Vol 4 (new main blog) : The Long Road To RecoveryGledwoodhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-50978171872137950162012-06-23T19:38:10.921+01:002012-06-23T19:38:10.921+01:00Wisconxin?Wisconxin?Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-44039952213506957672012-06-23T19:36:10.008+01:002012-06-23T19:36:10.008+01:00Sweety you've seen the cruel comments I've...Sweety you've seen the cruel comments I've gotten. I've been in years over some assholes anon comment. Mostly because I know it's true. I cannot explain it, and I'm not saying the cruel comment you have gotten is true. You just have to block anon comments, no matter .how much attention positive or negative out is. Attention seeking is not healthy.<br />not to say that you are seeking attention but in a way I'm aten't we all negative?Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-75456815215590746102012-06-23T19:25:18.024+01:002012-06-23T19:25:18.024+01:00Burg...,
I am inclined to think that it is almost ...Burg...,<br />I am inclined to think that it is almost if not completely possiably to make a clear diagnosis of mental health of an addict still using, even if it is prescribed methadone. I was originally diagnosed bi polar st the young age of 16, during my second stint in a nuthouse. I feel that I was to be diagnosed with such a complicated illness. As you may well know all teenagers present as sociopaths. The brain is still growing. I using at 18, hooked st 22. I doubt I'll ever be sure of my true mental state until that day comes and I'm clean. Do you agree?Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-61747359347725010632012-05-28T23:53:55.476+01:002012-05-28T23:53:55.476+01:00Janice: my writing is very focused? Coming from a ...Janice: my writing is very focused? Coming from a published writer like you that's a big compliment. That's good! Thank you.<br /><br />Bev: email can be EXTREMELY stressful... just signing in is stressful. Then I worry what the hell people are going to say to me. I'm glad I'm not the only person in the world like that.<br /><br />Welshcakes: thank you very much. I worked out that barring any hitches , at the current rate, I should be off methadone in 12 weeks at the longest.<br /><br />James Claims: I was going to try that mood mapping thing. One problem I have found is it's surprisingly difficult to rate the strenghth of any given symptom at one time and much easier to do it afterwards.<br /><br />I'm not convinced alcohol is altogether good for me. If I'm going to do DRA or NA I'm going to have to stop it!<br /><br />Charlie Pie: I really want to go knowing I'm 100% clean and can FINALLY hopefully be accepted by the NA group...<br /><br />Buggerlugz: "off drugs" meant off street drugs... I was still on methadone ...Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-58695241664056137152012-05-28T23:48:19.265+01:002012-05-28T23:48:19.265+01:00Furtheron: twice as many people die on methadone a...Furtheron: twice as many people die on methadone as heroin? Doesn't surprise me at all! See why I want to get off that crap. It's a toxin to body and mind!<br /><br />Buggerlugz: NA make the first year off drugs sound "bipolar" yet when I turned up at a few meetings floridly manic nobody seemed to believe I was off drugs. And yet I was! So I have a "resentment" over that, that I'm trying to let go. The reason I like NA so much is exactly as you put it ~ only place you can go and meet a room full of clean addicts! (Apart from DRA maybe...)<br /><br />Akelamalu: thanks I CAN'T WAIT TO BE OFF METHADONE FOR ONCE AND FOR ALL!<br /><br />Bev: I never sweated heavily before the opiate addiction... so hopefully I won't sweat heavily after it! I can but hope!Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-27653306261984573002012-05-28T07:35:37.480+01:002012-05-28T07:35:37.480+01:00U R doing very well, stop been so hard on yourself...U R doing very well, stop been so hard on yourself! methadone does keep you in the addictive cycle, I h8ed drug clinic, other users there talking bout drugs didnt help. I decided to get off methadone to avoid going there and the temptations it brings. Also having to attend reaffirms the 'addict' self perception. Going to NA and the other u mentioned r very positive steps. The group members as 'EX addicts' will support u so u can start to veiw yourself as who you really are, a strong individual who is ( by the sounds of it) beating addiction into submission. Hopefully u will meet some great new friends too. Keep up the good work, and think positive! All the best <br />ChazAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-11158551266452180992012-05-28T02:40:12.903+01:002012-05-28T02:40:12.903+01:00Hi Glen, I decided to stop by again and check out ...Hi Glen, I decided to stop by again and check out your recovery. Sounds torturous in a lot of ways. I'm very glad I never did heroin after reading your blog. Cocaine, yes I did that, but thankfully I didn't get really addicted to that. Clonezapam, well, I understand the perpetual sweats and the need to be off of it. It's only 87 here and I'm done for.<br /><br />I'd be interested in hearing more about DRA. It sounds like an excellent idea since a lot of people who use drugs also have some mental disorder. And while I'm a huge skeptic of AA, I do applaud any effort to get off alcohol for at least a few months to let the mind stabilize. Plus, DRA sounds like a place where there are like minded and similarly situated people. <br /><br />I also know from personal experience that being bipolar makes it very easy to abuse alcohol since it can intensify manias and provoke them while giving temporary relief to depression. But in my case, I haven't ever been a complete fan of abstinence from alcohol, and being in the beer capital of the midwest/US, I drink a beer here and there. Never getting drunk or buzzed, but enjoying something nice once in a while. In particular, the New Glarus signature collection is heaven in a bottle. But I've also mapped my moods carefully and found that a single beer doesn't effect me, and I can keep the drinking in check, so it's an entirely individual thing. If you haven't checked it out, I have an old formula still up where values can be entered and instantly charted according to time for different peculiarities of moods. I've found it helpful for finding the rhythms of my moods and predicting when I should or shouldn't do things. Might also be helpful to see how well you're doing on methadone from dose to dose to identify any increase in frequency or severity of moods so you can adjust mood stabilizers accordingly.James Claimshttp://jamesclaims.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-1833019900150330052012-05-27T22:35:06.029+01:002012-05-27T22:35:06.029+01:00Well done, Gleds. xWell done, Gleds. xWelshcakes Limoncellohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17209759237794290941noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-8846002904021909952012-05-27T20:43:43.511+01:002012-05-27T20:43:43.511+01:00Grant me serenity t.Igot a hate email and was cryi...Grant me serenity t.Igot a hate email and was crying this morning.Than i figuered i want to be me no matter what ppl think.laughing at me and makeing a fool out of me.Bevhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04389002655247740653noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-65184572335539600172012-05-25T05:41:36.395+01:002012-05-25T05:41:36.395+01:00I just dropped in to see how you were doing, and I...I just dropped in to see how you were doing, and I must say that I'm pleased at your progress. <br /><br />And you writing is very focused. <br /><br />Hang in there. It's a hard slow road to recovery but it sounds like your ready to take that trip to clean-vile.<br /><br />Janice~Janice Seagraveshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02576031935823587485noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-44563183806523419052012-05-23T18:34:14.731+01:002012-05-23T18:34:14.731+01:00I know I dont have it in me to be a heroin addict....I know I dont have it in me to be a heroin addict.I sweat even when Im not doing nothing.Im a full figued gal and I can only wear cotton in summer.The worst place I sweat is my belly and i wipe my face all the time.When you get off the metherdone will you sweat less?I hope so.Bevhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04389002655247740653noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-40349544979755163722012-05-23T17:35:04.208+01:002012-05-23T17:35:04.208+01:00You have done well with the Methadone and everythi...You have done well with the Methadone and everything else. If you keep going you will eventually be totally clean - keep on Gleds. xAkelamaluhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11234268568845148285noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-58703332312888648142012-05-23T14:38:55.290+01:002012-05-23T14:38:55.290+01:00Gledwood, How I understand N/A is we can start loo...Gledwood, How I understand N/A is we can start looking for a sponsor and even "get" one, we just can't start the steps until we're off methadone and totally off H . . . I think most addicts (of 12 yrs) "feel" bi-polar when coming off all substances, I know I do, but I'm not prepared to accept any diagnosis until I have been totally Clean for a yr . . . yes, I know you were depressed pre-gear and so was I (some circumstantial/some not so). . . I'm all over the place too at the moment, especially today.<br />I think you've made great progress and I really believe N/A, although not 100% successful, is the best place to start. It's the only place I've seen clean addicts . . . and it really is just for today.<br />I hope we can both do this,<br />love as always xbugerlugs63https://www.blogger.com/profile/08598249255143939365noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-13827107444248557032012-05-23T08:57:40.159+01:002012-05-23T08:57:40.159+01:00I know of a DRA meeting near us which some friends...I know of a DRA meeting near us which some friends of mine go to. AA has always worked for me and the meetings I go to are accomodating in the main for other stuff too...<br /><br />Interesting Stat - 10 years old but...<br /><br />"One person dies from Ecstacy every month. One person dies from Heroin every other day. One person dies from Methadone every day. One person dies of alcohol every 20 mins". Institute of Psychiatry 2002<br /><br />The Methadone vs Heroin stat I found incredible when I first saw that - how on earth is that a credible treatment option then?Furtheronhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11903753972242964410noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-67409454206946477292012-05-22T22:33:40.731+01:002012-05-22T22:33:40.731+01:00I'm looking into the Dual Recovery meetings, t...I'm looking into the Dual Recovery meetings, they sound most interesting.Gledwoodhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09308172310486574510noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7301935512310857439.post-44292517847731959312012-05-22T22:12:08.320+01:002012-05-22T22:12:08.320+01:00Gleds, I'm glad that you are willing to get to...Gleds, I'm glad that you are willing to get totally clean and get a sponsor and work the steps. I do think that it will make a big difference in your life if you are willing. That is the key. Go to meetings and stay clean, okay?Sydhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05642843245634635843noreply@blogger.com