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Tuesday, 11 February 2014

No News Good News


I HAVEN'T WRITTEN anything here because not a lot has gone on. I didn't have a good Xmas, really. Or a happy new year. I don't know, I must have been depressed, or sick, or something. I don't know.

Hey I just got a comment saying I was delusional because I thought I could get in print. Well... maybe I am, maybe not. Fiction writing is not like blogging. Everything goes through at least two drafts, if not five, six or seven. Here I just tap it in and press publish; there I weigh every word. Fiction is about characterization and dialogue. Blogging is just me reporting every turd I've done. My fiction, you might argue, is just a literary turd ~ and a real steamer of a sloppy one at that! They have almost nothing in common, so you can't really assess my ability to write novels by reading my blog. 

Anyway I haven't written anything for about a month. I finished my first (short) novel in computer-ready form and almost instantly spiralled into depression so bad I couldn't focus enough to weigh up two versions of the same short passage, to work out which should go into book two. I don't know why I got like that. My GP wanted to up the meds by another hundred milligrams, but I don't want even more antipsycho tabs. The ones I'm on are causing enough side-effects as it is.


Er, I don't know what else to say. I feel like I'm under seige. I have this feeling that I need a guard dog. I saw the most beautiful doggie on the Australian Animal Rescue programme. At first glance I thought she was a St Bernard. She was really cute, but she had been bitten by a snake and they couldn't save her. So she died. And she was one of the most beautiful dogs I have ever seen. And she wasn't a St Bernard, she was an Akita. I have always wanted an Akita puppy but have never seen them for sale. I have this daydream that one day a stray will come looking for me, and that will be my sign.

An akita puppy. See how cute it is..?? Though I think this one, with the sawn-off legs look, is something of a crossbreed...

I must go. Hope everyone's all right...

Hachiko monogatari: the tale of Hachiko, the faithful dog who never stopped looking for his master...



8 comments:

Sara said...

Hi Gledwood,
von Dir hört man ja gar nichts mehr!
Schön, Dich hier noch zu finden.

Liebe Grüße
Sara

Anonymous said...

Hang on in there and things will get better. Maybe you can get a dog to look after? My very naughty black lab eats me out of house and home, doesn't do a thing he's told, and leaves hair all over the carpet. I love him loads.

Anonymous said...

Hi Gledwood,
Gratulation, Du hast eine "Kritik" bekommen, bevor Du Dein Buch veröffentlicht hast. Du schreibst mit viel Humor und Gefühl, ich lese immer mit Spannung, was Du bloggst. Weiter so.

AleX

Gledwood said...

Sara im Jahre 2010 hatte ich ein Nervenzusammenbruch und dachte, dass ich nicht mehr Deutsch schreiben koennte... ick konnte praktisch nicht in Englisch denken ganz zu schweigen vor Deutsch

Gledwood said...

Anon: I would love to get an Akita. Up until about 5 years ago I didn't even know what an Akita was. I just thought people were walking a stocky type of curly-tailed husky... Anyway then I met one down the park and I looked them up and found they had exactly the temperament I'm looking for (reserved) and that they're not the type of dog you would mess with (they're sometimes used as police dogs in Japan) ~ ie would make good guard dogs/bodyguard dogs. Also they're probably the cutest dogs in the world. So as soon as akita puppies show up I'm going to try and get one...

Gledwood said...

Alex, Danke schoen!! ich hoffe, das mein Buch ok wurde!

Sara said...

Es sieht so aus, als hättest Du zu viel auf einmal gewollt und gemacht damals.
Schön, wenn es Dir jetzt wieder besser geht!

Ich wünsch' Dir alles Liebe und Gute für die Zukunft!
Sara

Audrey said...

I loved that film Gleds, the pup they used was a japanese shiba the elder dog was an Akita, I have a husky now she is no guard dog lol very friendly and most likely lick any intruder to death. Very loyal friends :)