Wednesday, 25 July 2012

Interminable Undulations...

I DON'T know what to say. I don't feel as crap as this time last week... but that doesn't necessarily "mean" anything. I long ago noticed that my mood (whether high or low, or both) inevitably follows a
wavy line; that is, if you imagine a piece of paper with a line through the middle, denoting "normal" mood, as well as fluctuating each side of normal ("high and low") it has been known to stay high, above the line of normality, and to still follow the wobbly line, or, more commonly, to remain low, always below "normal" but still endlessly wobbling on and on. Does that "mean" anything...? Probably not. But does that happen to anyone else? If so, please tell me.

I told one of my doctors about this donkeys years ago... then the shrink at the drugs clinic, who I used to see every week, some years ago, noticed it herself and proposed LITHIUM..!! The last thing I wanna take! All it's good for (so I hear) is for breaking open and sprinkling on your chips (and British chips are like really fat French fries)... with vinegar. As for other mood stabilizers, my GP prescribed carbamazepine (Tegretol) about 18 years ago... I never did know why. I took it, then gave up on it. Then took it again, as a one-off, when I couldn't sleep and it brought me out in a terrible rash. My skin looked like wax. Never again.

I'm only popping the quetiapine (Seroquel) 300mgs out of desperation. If I ever feel like I want "out", I need only pop 150mg during the day, and daytime slumber is assured. And in case you're viewing that as borderline drug-abuse, it's actually prescribed as 150mg twice a day. I only take 300mg at night for convenience. Because ordinarily I don't like being knocked out during the day. I don't know what else I wanted to say. Nothing really. I'm OK. I'm OK. OK. Don't worry about me...


THIS TUNE HAS BEEN GOING ROUND IN MY HEAD...

DON MCLEAN: THE GRAVE





WANT SOMETHING LESS MORBID?

 MADONNA:~~

"...I'M GONNA RELAX
IN THE ARMS OF UNCONSCIOUSNESS..."

MADONNA: BEDTIME STORY




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10 comments:

  1. Bev25 July 2012 at 21:27

    I never had litium on potato chips but i dont think I will like that.I am tired today I get up so early.BTW i never heared the grave song before.

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  2. Bev25 July 2012 at 21:58

    today I feel bored and boring.

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  3. bugerlugs6325 July 2012 at 22:35

    Yep up and down and round and round here too . . . all over the place!
    I think most folk are.
    I think you might say "but not to this extent" . . . but I think you'd be surprised.
    That's a lot of thinks don't you think?
    No wonder I got a headache (which I haven't anymore)
    I am in a strange mood though.
    Hey ho day one (again) over with ;-)
    Hope you feel good tomorrow, with love x

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  4. Anonymous26 July 2012 at 02:23

    So I know you won't post a picture but will you say whether you are male or female?

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  5. Anonymous26 July 2012 at 08:00

    I just added your web page to my bookmarks. I enjoy reading your posts. Thank you!

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  6. Akelamalu26 July 2012 at 13:42

    I think most people have up and down moods, though maybe not quite as up and down as you do Gleds.

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  7. Bev26 July 2012 at 16:47

    I hear that woman are more moodier then men.My ex hubby use to say that.

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  8. Furtheron26 July 2012 at 16:52

    I don't think the weather helps - whilst for many the sun shining makes them happy I notice for others the heat makes them depressive...

    Take care

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  9. Gledwood26 July 2012 at 20:33

    Anon: I am a man, but I'm turning into a woman (long story).

    Yeah it has been so hot. I thought hot sunny days were meant to make you feel happy. They don't me... :-(

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  10. Gledwood30 July 2012 at 12:48

    DID Y'ALL KNOW, LONDON WAS ONLY AT A PEAK OF 27c, 80f LAST WEEK (I'M WRITING THIS ON MONDAY 30th JULY)... IT FELT FAR HOTTER... UP IN THE 90s... MY DAD SAID IT WAS PROBABLY THE HUMIDITY AND HE WAS RIGHT. IT GOT HUMID ENOUGH THAT RANDOM RAINDROPS STARTED DROPPING OUT OF THE AIR ON SOME DAYS... I THINK WHEN THAT HAPPENS WE'VE REACHED SATURATION POINT AND 100% HUMIDITY...

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