Re the word "faux pas" btw I would barely ever trouble to pronounce it "foe pah" unless I were in the highest company. Usually I say "forks pass", as if a person has got into difficulties with a cutlery drawer.
How the hell am I ever going to give up heroin? I've just bought 2 more bags. I was only on that street to score. See: lies and hypocrisy all the way.
PS If you're wondering about the relevance of the picture ~ I do too. It just happened to come up when I googled "faux pas"
17:42 hrs... TIME FOR A MUSICAL BREAK!
OPUS III IT'S A FINE DAY
Doesn't Kirsty Hawkshaw look like a right trip-head? My ex-housemate, who went to school with her, said she was a "real prissy virgin"..!
KIRSTY HAWKSHAW: IT'S A FINE DAY 2002 TRANCE MIX BY MIKE KOGLIN
I'm not sure the new tune mixes with the old one very well. But still I like this...
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I wish I could tell you how to give it up . . . Same here, I swear that this one or that one is the last bag, and then . . .
ReplyDeleteI've started back at N/A (will post on that later) It's the only place I see folk who have actually done this and got clean after years of using. Keep trying and writing . . .
With love, as always x
I do wish you hadn't bought that. :(
ReplyDeleteIf you dont buy it you cant use it.I have to remind myself not to buy lushious food on my diet.
ReplyDeleteLove & good thoughtsXoXoX
I should have learnt never to post up my intentions to stop. There is something in me, a force just too strong to resist who wants to fuck up all my good intentions and thoroughly enjoys doing so.......
ReplyDelete:-(
Hmm... move somewhere else and ignore "the signs?"
ReplyDeleteYes, that whole telling people thing just seems to make it worse, doesn't it? Or maybe it's kind of like dieting, where the more you're focused on avoiding things, the more you actually think about them? Maybe think of focusing on improving your overall lifestyle instead of just needing to stay away from heroin.
Just caught up, I won't dare post this at my blog because I think my councler at the methadone clinic reads my blog, but anyway I've gone off my meds. I ran out and just didn't get them refilled.
ReplyDeleteI still feel above average mood wise. No depression, not comfy sadness. Thoughts of suicide tho, I keep putting my fingers to my head as if they were a gun and I pull the triger, and then let the peacefulness of death overtake me. It's really nice.
ANNA: you mean you went off your bipolar meds? I went off mine last year hoping to go manic... nothing happened for about 2 weeks then I started feeling really DEPRESSED. It was terrible. Every time I have tried stopping Seroquel I cannot sleep at ALL and feel like I have drunk an aquarium full of black coffee... then I start going higher and feel like I should be at an illegal rave. Trying to sleep then is just impossible because I feel almost exactly the same as if I was high on coke.
ReplyDeleteI think my depressed mood has gone away. Well I hope so...
EYELICK: yes I think I'm going to make a policy of never telling anyone anything. It probably works a hell of a lot better that way..!!!
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Hope that you can find a way to quick the H. I know that you can do it if you would like to.
ReplyDeleteI did it last year, when there was no good heroin available and I had such an elevated mood I actually felt better off drugs than on them! I hope I can do it again!!
ReplyDeleteThis is the right blog for anyone who wants to find out about this topic. You realize so much its almost hard to argue with you (not that I actually would want…HaHa). You definitely put a new spin on a topic thats been written about for years. Great stuff, just great!
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