XMAS DAY WAS TERRIBLE for me and Binky. We had a vicious argument on the phone about me never making it round to her house. I never made it because I felt terrible and we had an argument which started with that but then went on to other things (on my part) kept pent up for too Long. So xmas day was a horrible day and Binky got reallly upset, sobbing pitifully down the phone and I felt dead guilty for having set her off so bad. So I sent her a big message saying sorry and we only exchanged pressies today.
I took my meds early and slept
the entire xmas day through, missing everything on TV, proof that I really wasn't well (you know, because I secong-guess myself all the time, telling myself I ought to be fine, in fact I go through life telling everybody I'm fine even when I feel anything but...) (I cannot just sleep like that all day on demand). (What had happened was, I slept about an hour and a half over the night then it was time to go, walking six miles there and back and I just wasn't up to it. My foot was still hurting after my treading broken glass into it.... all this ridiculousness.)
She bought me a really cool watch a SKELETON WATCH which is what I've always wanted. I don't know how she knew that. And I got her gold dangly earrings and giant silver diamond hoops. Stuff that would have cost in the £100,000s were it real. I was really glad she liked hers as I semi thought she might consider it worthless tacky tat. But it's not tat at all, it's beautiful.
I have to go I'm thinking about my future life and am really stressed about the legalistics of the amusement of my "intellectual books"...
So that was my xmas. OK in the end, and we forgave and forgot. LITERALLY forgot. Neither of us WANTS and we certainly don't need to recall the ins and outs of a crazy episode... so it's fading from both our minds, exactly as we require it to.
I hope your day was more joyous...
Pictures: not the exact stuff, but the jewellery is from the same lines... isn't it wonderful?
My x hubby was eating my Christmas dinner and thinking yummy but my father in law didnt like my cooking at all.I got sad like last year.I asked my ex father in law dont you like it at least for the effort in it? No. Do you like it at least a little close to what it should taste like? No.Do you like that love was used to prepare and cook it? No.
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Why are ppl so hard to please?
ok this comment is turning in to a book so I hope you like this semolina and nutmeg flavored kiss.xx000
I didn't end up doing xmas day or dinner AT All DEPRESSING! The more I think about it, or remember the more ashamed I am of my attitude or behaviour............. not good!
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