Wednesday, 8 August 2012

All Hyped Up And Somewhere to Go

I HAD SO many things wizzing about my mind on the way down here I cannot remember for the life of me I'm pie in the sky today no sleep a lovely elevated mood. It's a real Dairy Lee Challenge.
I'm going up the road to collect my debts and be sociable with Paddy McDaddy from Ireland. I keep thinking of things and had to write a list of what to do because it's gone like snowflakes in a blizzard. Catch a handful of water; catch my thoughts. I had a tiny glass of cyder earlier on and WHAM! That Coke Pixxie got me again. I am NOT TAKING COCAINE, I GET FREE COCAINE ON THE MEMBRANE, ON THE BRAIN IT'S CALLED SCHIZOMANIA OR BIPOLAR MANIA (my differential diagnosis being bipolar1) I cannot concentrate and I'm not spending all day coming up with some boring worthy crap I don't care if I sound mad I feel mad actually sane. I feel completely like THIS IS THE WAY I'M MEANT TO BE ALL THE TIME ~~ but I'm Too Much Of A Miserable Bastard to keep it up. I keep fantasizing about grabbing the Depressed Me by the Throat and Shooting that Miserable Bastard right Between The Eyes! Sorry I have to go down the doctors to get more quetiapine (Seroquel to you Americans) I'm so glad we have a free health service. If I go really mad I'm thinking of taking use of their mental nutthouse asylum facilities.
Yeah I've LOST a strip of quetiapine but I'm not taking it anyway now. I have been taking it every day but I gave it up last night because I felt too high too good and Bugerlugs and my family don't think I should or don't think I need to or it's bad for me ... did you know quetiapine has a "discontinuyation syndrome?" it's yet another ADDICTIVE SUBSTANCE trying NOT to get me high ie a Double Negative. So I don't know why I'm getting these pills. Trying to look Respectable, I spose, snows on the windows. Hose. Ha ha ha my head is rhyming timing what would you rather be a Kogawa , a Kobuta or a Kobito 人. I''s very important. O man I got so lost entrapping that Japanese for y'all. I've written out a huge kanji test, that's a test of Chinese characters as used in Japanese o shit and I forogtot to bring the book out with me to read on the bus how typical. O man I've got to go my time is running really low and I cannot edit you're supposed to get the ideas in flight. WAHEY!!!



Why did that questionmark get there I didn't type it??



GLEDWOOD said...


Gledwood said...

also i was running outof time when i wrote that, plus my mind was running on 10 to the power of 100 time. the pigs are relevant to the post btw, if you look carefully...!

Furtheron said...

Glad you've calmed down a bit mate... ;-)

Micro Pigs!!! My daughter wants one of them... give me strength!

* Sniffs and sneers like the grumpy old git I am *

karl said...

Hiya Mate, A friend of mine was on quetiapine & he said it did nothing for him, now he's on clipixol which seems to work for him since he's stable'ish most of the time. He doesn't have any choice about taking it though, the CPN comes round to his place every few weeks & injects it into his rear end. Every so often he refuses & they cart him off to the nearest psychiatric unit or sometimes he just goes in voluntarily for a break, usually when he's skint.

Take care. x

Bev said...

It says intelectual comments so Im shuting up. We have comersials here on television that says seroquel causes a whole bunch of side effects and some real serious and then they give you the lawyers # to call.I think it is 1 800 bad drug.Love in bunnhes for you.

Gledwood said...

FURTHERON: I'd luuurve a microswine!

KARL: if I do go crazy again I'm definitely going in the nuthouse. Last time it was like looking after a hyperactive child on speed 22 hours a day (because that's how long I spent awake) I won't tell them I'm not taking my medication. Though I suppose they would notice, they're not stupid. Just terminally jaded in places like that...

BEV: what horrible side-effects? You've got me aroused now. I noticed that when I went up from 200 to 300mg I woke up with an incredibly dry mouth every morning. It was really inconvenient. 300mg isn't v much by the way. No wonder I was so manic ☺☺☺☺☺☺☺!

Bev said...

Diabetes and increse risk of heart attack.I dont want to scare you but thats what the ad says and theres a bunch of greedy lawyers looking for busness.

Tam of Two said...

I would like to be a little person. i always wanted to be a fairy.

Syd said...

I don't know what to say intellectually. I am hoping that you will get some good help and give being clean a chance.

GLEDWOOD said...

BEV: Olanzapine/Zyprexa, the nearest rival to Seroquel is even more likely to cause prediabetes and is notorious for packing on the pounds... Ukh. I'm not fat, but I'm not really thin either. I kind of look normal, but I don't want to put on any more weight, it just doesn't suit me.

TAM: a fairy? Ooo that's cute!

SYD: I'm way cleaner than I used to be. The high is nothing to do with drugs. It feels like the kind of drugs I never take any more (because they make you really jittery, can make you really paranoid and can all have horrible comedowns) though mania when it's good actually feels a lot nicer than any drug I've tried, because I don't feel anxious when I'm manic. I do get irritable and kind of uptight and agitated though. The bit I didn't like was my mind racing uncontrollably so you just can't remember what you were thinking. And when it's really bad you can't remember where you are or what you were doing either. (Doesn't sound that good, does it?!)