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Wednesday 9 May 2012

The Exhausted Mountain Climber


IT'S BEEN so rainy and cold in London it was like living on top of a mountain.

I have spent hours and hours in bed, even though I was awake for most of it. Struck by absolute physical exhaustion.

I went to bed at midnight 30 and was up by 2 thinking "please no!" Then I did go back and sleep from at LEAST 6-12 if not 1 so I got at least 8 hours' sleep. I just wish I could have slept EARLIER.

I flicked through 70 pages of Five Go Off In A Caravan but my head was still racing with thoughts of endless other things plus I had one eye on the television, so the book flew past in a blur.

I have been feeling sad and confused, because I was trying to reason to myself that I was not in any way ill, whilst experiencing symptoms that are famously the hallmarks of hypomania. I'm nowhere near as excitable as I was a couple of days ago, so that's good.

If I start sleeping normally again, I'm going back to "normal"; if not, no matter how "normal" I think I feel, the Monster is just round the corner. Bitter experience has taught me this.

Come to think of it though: when am I ever "normal"?!

Now for a famous Eastern-sounding Tune. The music featured in this track is from some film, which is definitely NOT The King And I, which I saw last week... does ANYBODY know the name of the film, the tune, or both?



WATERGATE: HEART OF ASIA

 

  Illustrated: Wudang Mountain, Five Go Off In A Caravan...

2 comments:

Furtheron said...

What on earth is "normal"...

Agree on the weather - yesterday it was like the rain was coming up from the ground rather than down from the sky - very odd

Gledwood said...

Furtheron: I don't think I have been "normal" my entire life through!!

It's more like a tropical rainforest today. Hot. Sticky. Wet. Ukh.