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Monday, 16 July 2012

Inner Dark



I really feel depressed.

14 comments:

Bev said...

Are you okay Sweet heart?I would like to come over to your place and bring you my delish brocoli and cavateli with chicken and cheese sauce.its my best dish.I can kiss you to and tickle you all over I bet you cant resist my tickling you.Im to far though.XoXoXo.I love you.i brought an extra dozen kisses for you for any place you need patching up.I miss you at my blog honey.Come visit me some time okay?

Gledwood said...

Thanks but nothing works any more. Nothing.
Your blog? I'm going there now.

Bev said...

nothing works no more.I dont like that.i wish we lived close together!I would bring you my home cooking and i bet that may help.

Gledwood said...

Thanks Bev ;-) I'm totally bored of my own cooking. Eating practically the same thing every day probably doesn't help... Anything's worth a try %-/
I hope you noticed I finally put your blog on my roll up the sidebar. Like I said at the time, everyone who was important was bound to get forgotten in the blogrolling.
Only the blogs I'd known the longest ended put up there. Typical me I know :-(
Well you're there now :-)

You know Wordpress blogs put a yellow smiley when you comment ":-)" or ";-)". (or ":-(") I wish Blogger would do that... :-(

Yeah I do feel very :-( today. I don't even know why, it just happens sometimes............................................................................................................................................................................

Bev said...

you did?Thanks.You want to write me?I want to cheer you up if I have to stand on my head.My new recipe is frozen mushed kiwi with lemon juice and stawberries that I put in the blender before I freeze it.I know you will love it and it will cool you off.I just wish I was neighbors with you.I be over every day with my cooking but 1 warning is you will put on wait!XoXoXo.These kisses are personal and come with instructions on how to use them so it gets a little steamy!

Anna Young said...

Oh so sad, I'd rather be mad, instead I'm just bad, no-one likes me, not even my dad. Oh well, I don't anything I once had, it just all makes me so fucking sad. Hopefully its just a passing fad, everyone's feeling so sad.

I promise tomorrow I'll post the blog about my experinces being bi polar and the crazy stories I have about mania. Lastnight I this nightmare, I was reliving a manic psychotic episode I once had back in 2001 right before the end of the school year, which afterwords everyone shunned me because they didn't understand I had a mental illness. At that time I had once been told that I exhibited the signs of bi polar disorder, but I wasn't on any medications for it. I was on the Adderall and prozac back them. Not exactly the right combination of drugs for a manic depressive with psychotic episodes. That was my first major mania that turned into a psychotic episode.

Which reminds, there is a new televison show comming on here in America on the TNT network, its about a very smart police detective who isn't offically allowed to work anymore because he has...schitzoevective disorder. Sorry I spelled that wrong. Anyway, before you were diagnosised schitzoevective I had never herd of it. Now there is a show and the figgen main character has it. I don't remember the name of the show. The guy who plays the crazy main character is the same guy who played Will on the Televison show Will and Grace that was on NBC back in the late 90's early 2000's.

I hope that cheered you up a bit.
xx
Anna

Furtheron said...

This too shall pass... hang in there, sometimes you just are what you are for whatever reason there is no reason so just live through it there will be a brighter day

bugerlugs63 said...

Hi Gledwood, Sorry you're feeling down . . . I'm a bit melancholic (sp?) tonight too . . . but I haven't used so that's good.
You know when you look at your record of posts (not stats, just posts) and it says 1 person has "+1'd" a post, what does it mean? It shows how many views and comments then some posts have +1 next to them and if you click on that, it shows you who has +1'd it . . . what does it mean?
I hope you know, thanks x x

Jeannie said...

Take care of yourself but try not to wallow. Tempt yourself with something tasty. Go for a walk.

Syd said...

Sorry, Gleds, that you are feeling depressed. Perhaps you need to talk to a shrink. Hope that things will be better for you soon. I don't know how to help other than to just say that I do care about you.

bugerlugs63 said...

Hi Lovey, I hope you're feeling a bit brighter today? I'm sure you know that if you've been using - then not using, you will get depressed. It only really works as "anti-depressant" if it's constant use . . . which is rarely an option.
I worked out what that +1 means, it's a recommendation on google reader . . . but I expect you knew that.
I would post some pics of your litter . . . but for some reason my camera/phone wont charge. Geekster is back from Spain now so maybe he'll fix it. If so I will put some Robos up for you. Prayers for some joy to come your way, today! with love x

Akelamalu said...

I'm sorry to hear this Gleds, hang in there matey. xx

Gattina said...

No wonder with this cold and rainy weather, it really doesn't help to get out of a depression !

Gledwood said...

BEVERLEY: oh I don't know what you could have done. I kept trying to tell myself it was a sulk as much as a depression because I had gone to antidrugs group therapy that I didn't really want to be at at all, so I told myself I was just in a bad mood because of that... but it didn't work, I felt crap all day and didn't sleep last night. I only slept this morning. I feel a bit better today.

ANNA GRACE: you were having manic episodes at school? Did you get your SAT and all that? I was wondering whether the adult education maths course had anything to do with that... I look 4ward to reading your Bipolar Scandal post. Have you ever been psychotic and depressed? Or just psychotic manic? Some people are unlucky enough to get both you know? As for the TV show about the schizoaffective cop, that sounds really interesting I will have to watch it. When I get a chance... If I ever get TV back. As there is zero reception where I currently live...

FURTHERON: it's mostly passed already. Well I HOPE it has....

BUGERLUGS: the +1 thing is where a person clicks that button, then enters their details and it's just a thing to say a person has recommended that post to other readers... I don't understand what it is really as I've never used the facility myself and like you only noticed it last week. Some of my posts have +3. They don't seem any more interesting than the ones with no +s at all to me...

JEANNIE: I was reading something about techniques for coping with depression. It gave 4 common ones: wallowing/brooding, problem-solving, distraction and dangerous activities. I use distraction, which was said to be a very healthy way of dealing with depression. Unfortunately it was said to be one of the worst strategies for dealing with hypomania as it says it only makes it worse! So you can't have everything...

SYD: I would like to see a shrinko, as much as anything because I haven't seen one at all in over a year. I wonder if I'll ever get an appointment...

AKELAMALU: cheers dears ;-)

GATTINA: yeah the weather has been terrible, it's like standing under a plant-mister up some tropical mountain in Borneo...(!!)